Finding My New Normal

07/06/2016

Transitioning is hard. Change is hard. And like Deepak Chopra said, “all great changes are preceded by chaos.”

Here I am in a new city in a new house that has a whole new garbage pickup schedule while my toddler runs laps around me because I am 5 months pregnant, exhausted from packing and suffering from some antepartum depression, and my mind is running circles around itself trying to keep track of everything that has to get done in the next few weeks.

Unpack the kitchen. Check. Sort of. Unpack the living room and the toys. Check. Major check. Unpack the bathrooms and the laundry room and my closet and E’s closet and the basement and the mud room and every other box in the house. Not check, not check, not check.

Go meet your new doctor who will deliver #2. Go meet your new physiotherapist because your pubic symphysis dysfunction is hurting and tylenol and stretching just isn’t cutting it anymore. Go meet your new chiropractor and make sure to take E because her constipation is getting out of control. Go buy another bottle of Tums.

Contact every mom and baby related business in the city to see if they’re interested in your business. Scout out partners, sponsors, rentals, and registrants. Get your office space organized so it’s a place you want to be. Even if by E’s bedtime you just want to shower and go to bed. This needs to work. Stay-at-home-mamahood depends on it.

Don’t forget about your husband. He is important. He loves you and he supports you and he sees that you’re struggling but he really doesn’t know how to help. You need to love him back. Even if it’s the last thing you have energy for at the end of the day.

Moving is tough and pregnant is tough and  marriage is tough and toddler is tough and business is tough. Transition is… Tough. But we get on. Because that’s what mamas do. And soon the dust will settle and the boxes will be unpacked and the business will be moving and #2 will be here and I will feel physically capable of living my life to its fullest again. So in the meantime I will try to remember in as many moments as I can that “this too shall pass” and being a mama is the greatest thing I have ever done and will ever do and soon it will just be my city, my house, my garbage schedule with my two little babes, and my loving and supportive husband and life will be out of transition for a moment and normal again.